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We've all had bad and good experiences when it comes to working in a team, usually because of mishaps with our peers regarding work division and tasks. I honestly find teamwork as a chance of learning things from others, interacting and understanding everyone's abilities and trying to work with them Unfortunately something I deeply disagree with are fights and intense arguments over schoolwork, I've found myself in situations where people legit get angry or fight with their team-mates, and I always find that so super draining. I'm not sure, I guess it really depends on the situation...there's some people who literally dont do ANYTHING and expect their mates to do it all......what a pointless blog entry, right?

Recently I watched a movie called The Neon Demon that showcases a society where people only care about you if you're good looking, it's quite gory and tragic but it has a really interesting take on this topic that people seem to ignore for the sake of being a good person. When in reality, there's nothing wrong with talking about it, and in fact, it could help people who feel insecure about themselves, if done correctly. This movie showcases the obsession of beauty as something toxic and distopic. There's even a theory called Lookism that says that if you look good people will treat you nice your entire life or at least until you lose your looks. It's like racism but ''lookism'', like being racist but not because of your race/skin but the way you look. This theory is absolute bollocks in my opinion and so many young men have created online communities where they straight up ask other men if life is even worth living because their noses have a...

I love parties, I've been to maybe 10 since a year ago, so not that many. I don't even know if anyone's going to read this so I might aswell just have fun with this entry. But god, I love them, part of a reason as of why I wish i had more friends was because I really am a party animal. I love being in a place surrounded by friendly people getting all intoxicated and letting it all out, the energy is awesome. When I used to work at this one school I went partying the last day with my workmates and we drank all night long. It rocked. The feeling is amazing. I'm just so sweet and nice when I'm drunk and the people who gave me a chance to get to know me now that I'm a fun time when I drink. Sometimes I'm just sad and depressed because there's nobody to invite me to a ''peda'' or whatever because I'm annoying or obnoxious or weird or whatever. Like come on...have mercy for me. I'm only 21. I just wanna have fun!!! One of my f...

Warning: contains curse words and NSFW topics. Today's mini-topic is a little informative and preventive thread about students feeling attracted to a teacher or professor while in college. (maybe a little pointless , but thought It'd be fun to write) It is an undeniable fact that the way attraction works doesn't limit itself to people outside of work or school, absolutely not. Even if you have a girtlfriend or a boyfriend ( doesn't mean you'll do anything about it, though, well, depends on who you are ) The human brain doesn't give a rat's ass about boundaries, so feeling some type of attraction to a professor is not uncommon for the typical college student looking for some action.  Anyways, what should we do as teachers if we encounter one situation like this with a student who clearly likes us? Well, the answer is obvious. Never respond to any of your student's flirtatious attitudes towards you, no matter how tempting. It can go r...

I wish I had taken advantage of this platform and interacted and posted all my previous entries throughout the semester. It pains me that nobody else but the teacher will read them or comment on them and this may be a lesson for me to realize how many things I take for granted.... Now, In retrospective, if I worked on this blog as I was supposed to, I would've had interesting interactions with my peers, and maybe even got to know other people from their opinions on my own entries! Fortunately, I still have more than an hour to comment on many blog entries from my peers as possible. Time to comment away!

But sometimes I really feel like that, sometimes in class I feel like im in a place full of androids, willing to receive anything they're told and willing to never think for themselves as they have given up on having a critical thinking process outside of the comfort of their own minds. It sucks feelin this way cause sometimes I feel like I'm the one being egocentric and stupid, or feeling special when in reality I know my classmates are all just like me, unique, interesting, critical, with STRONG views on an infinity of topics. But the problem is the fact that everyone wants to be a good samaritan and avoid saying stuff they really want to. And it sucks. Now people are looking down on those who think they're not like anyone else and usually these people think should be given Nobel prizes for their ever-so repeated and plagiarized points of view and boring advice that we hear off every single time and yes, I agree with those who hate this kind of individual. Get off ...

This blog entry is more like a little rant, about many, many experiences I've had with a pair of teachers. As I've mentioned in a previous entry, teachers always encourage participation, that's awesome. Thumbs up, speaking is important! Nevertheless, sometimes teachers forget that students can also teach them things. I remember many instances with professors from English in second and third semester and even  from the teacher of Morphology (only once with him, though) where I've said a word/saying/idiom/phrasal verb they didn't know existed, and they shut me down for it. They just shut me down and say I'm wrong, don't even bother to research. And when I bring up an example or the dictionary, my peers tell me to relax, and the teachers just shrug me off. It feels awful, it legit has been one of the worst feelings to be told I'm wrong on something that is actually true and that my students cannot even learn it too because the teachers just pass me of...

I know a certain English teacher who loves making her students do free topic presentations about literally anything throughout the semester. Great, fantastic, awesome. I don't see why she expects all her students to pay attention and have their eyes literally glued onto the presentation, though. As adults, it's understandable that we're required to follow certain rules in class and an etiquette. Sure, but jesus christ, It's actually difficult not to fall asleep on a presentation about Naruto, personal presentations about cartoons are not exactly the most interesting thing in the world. So come on, teacher, chill out! This is just food for thought, honestly. It's okay if you want to challenge your students into presenting something in English, wether it's their favorite tv show or food or what-not. But supervising everyone into listening to it for over 2 hours is kind of mental torture. I think a better way to make students present something is to encourage...

We all have heard from our classmates the typical: ''I'm sorry, I may be wrong about this, and in my own personal opinion, without trying to offend anyone, and without trying to spark a debate...wait, remember this is my own view, okay guys?'' This is usually said hand in hand with anxiety and trembling, this is a sign of how badly critical opinions and thoughts are treated in the classroom. And it's sad to see this kind of situation between adults in a college class.  Teachers always tell us that there's no question that is stupid, that our opinions are important, as long as they're said without the intent of harming somebody and are said without being carried out as facts. They always tell us that our voices matter, specially in subjects where debates and critical thinking and participation is required. It's sad and pathetic that so many people have taken their own interesting and innovative views and opinions and twisted them so th...

English teachers always tell us that we should acquire this level where we hear our inner thoughts in English and where we even dream in English, and many classmates throughout my school years have disagreed with this thought. I find myself to be a strong supporter of this, though. As it has helped me amazingly with my own monitoring of errors and what not, my English is not 100% perfect, of course not. But I'm not afraid of being confident and saying that I think my English is astounding, I'm tired of hearing my classmates being cruel with themselves and saying that their English is garbage, it's like dude, how about you actually become proud of your level of English, and understand that nobody really cares about your level when you talk to them? Unless you're a true beginner who doesn't care about learning the language you shouldn't be worried. I'm sick and tired of the barriers people put on themselves but this is because English teachers do not make a sp...

I don't really have friends in person but I do have friends online, and lots, lots of them. It has always been a habit of mine to just pop out my computer and talk, chat, go on mic, video-call my friends from the US and UK that I've met since so many years ago in a roleplaying game. I thank them for all the fluency they made me acquire in the language. And without them I honestly believe I would be so extremely bored everyday without having somebody to talk to or vent to. For me, interaction is 100% effective for a learner, of any age and background. The stereotypes have to stop, stereotypes against people from different races and against foreigners. I find them disgusting and ignorant, and it always infuriates me whenever I've heard someone make assumptions about a group of people they have probably never even sent a message to, it's like, if you're learning English, why would you feel that way about people who speak the language? There's always a tint of rac...

To procastinate, means not to care about consequences, not to care about the future, to explore fantasies, daydreams, and distractions as there's always a lingering fear in the procastinator, this growing fear of confronting, of creating, of working, making an effort. In my case, I find it destructive how my brain makes me absolutely afraid of getting things done in time, and when the time comes, I feel extremely regretful and instantly feel like I should've done things earlier, or with more time. It's ridiculous, it even sounds like an excuse. Unfortunately, I think procastination is not only laziness, there's something deeper there, for me it's just the fact that I've spent most of my life daydreaming and filling voids with fantasies and self-indulgent activities that rarely materialize into productivity, and even when they do, they don't really do much for my professional life. This habit of fantasizing roots from childhood traumas and lack of good pa...

Mental health awareness has been something relatively new, but has helped so many people around the country and the world incredibly, for me, I've always struggled with Borderline Personality Disorder, as long as I can remember, which in my own case it  means that my emotions take control of everything when they get triggered in a negative/positive way (mostly negative) And this has made me act in some ways in the past that always seem to make people detract from me, unfortunately. For somebody who adores people and social interaction, losing friends and not regaining relationships with my classmates in College has always been one of my biggest regrets and wishes at school, I went through a horribly hard time on Second and First semester which made me act in really toxic and immature ways, which ruined my reputation in the classroom for most people in it. Fortunately, I made friends with those who weren't in the loop of the situation, or those who were repeating subjects, in ...

Exercise releases different chemicals from your brain, and it always helps relieve stress when needed, in my experience, it always helps so much now that a lot of us are stuck at home, and sometimes feel extremely tense, unmotivated and even depressed. Unfortunately, time passes by so quickly when there's no habit of schedule, that I tend to miss days where I don't exercise and then regret it. Matter of fact is, working out at 12 am or 1 am is not the best idea, but I do it when time slips off of my hands and I realize it's way too late and I hadn't worked out. I feel like my body is out of wack, and it's the weirdest experience. I miss having my walks to college everyday, even though they were a long trip, seeing people on the train and the bus was always fun, albeit scary sometimes, as there's always a possibility of being mugged or something. Push-ups are definately my go-to exercise whenever I feel extremely tense, and squats are also a good replacement ...

This quarantine has showed me a huge opportunity on working online as people all around the world are stuck in their homes and still have to get work done or satisfy certain needs, which prompted me to expand my little proof-reading freelancer work with a few people into the site Fiverr.com So far I have earned quite a few dollars from that site and from proof-reading a variety of different works in English, it's always flattering to receive requests from people in need as I'm a second-language learner, but it's usually also second-language learners the ones who come for my help. The fun part of making money online is the realization of getting to learn how free-lancing works and how hard, but rewarding and motivating it can be. Besides that, you get to connect with others and create interesting friendships which can produce business oportunities. It's so important to realize that there's millions of people competing with you, but that there's also thou...

Being on a university campus everyday is what often drove me to work on college stuff, homework and so on. Also, just being on a large, known campus is inspiring. But lounging around at home I'm not motivated enough to give it my all on online classes. Nevertheless,  starting a routine during the break and maintaining it throughout the quarantine has given good results. Also it’s good to have a group of friends/classmates to hold each other up on hard times through a group chat, which always prompts for special connections with other classmates, something I've always struggled with.  A part of what motivates me is being in class and being engaged w/ everything as mentioned before. It might be harder to focus when professors cant see if youre actually paying attention or not, easier to just go on your phone while they're talking. or if their camera is blurry it might not be as easy to focus on what they say cuz we rely on visual feedback. it's been a weird experience bu...