Lookism.

Recently I watched a movie called The Neon Demon that showcases a society where people only care about you if you're good looking, it's quite gory and tragic but it has a really interesting take on this topic that people seem to ignore for the sake of being a good person. When in reality, there's nothing wrong with talking about it, and in fact, it could help people who feel insecure about themselves, if done correctly.

This movie showcases the obsession of beauty as something toxic and distopic.

There's even a theory called Lookism that says that if you look good people will treat you nice your entire life or at least until you lose your looks. It's like racism but ''lookism'', like being racist but not because of your race/skin but the way you look.

This theory is absolute bollocks in my opinion and so many young men have created online communities where they straight up ask other men if life is even worth living because their noses have a bump on them or their eyes are uneven (I'm serious, and it breaks my heart).

I love people, I've said that a million times already but it's true. I would never approach someone to be their friend just because they're a handsome young man or a pretty dainty girl, no. I don't care about that if I'm not making out with you.

But sometimes I find myself wondering if people approach me or not because they think I'm ugly or because they find my face weird, I'm not sure.

Sometimes I wish my face was different, friendlier looking, softer. It has felt a dark shadow bugging me inside my head for as long as I can remember.

The wish of looking different, it's something I've always thrived for and it's what drives me to saving for a plastic surgery procedure around my face.

I do believe people see you in a certain way (whether they like it or not) depending on what you look like. Those who pretend not to do it are lying.

What I do not agree with is the way the world is portraying beauty to both men and women EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. It's insane how nobody at school teaches us to LOVE OURSELVES. to FEEL GOOD IN OUR OWN SKIN. Yeah, they may say something here and there, but to me, there should be way more attention put into this topic, it is a difficult thing to present, but it would have helped me a lot.

There's no class when we are kids or teens (where we most need it) where they teach us that we look great, that we are great by who we are, that the way we should look shouldn't define our actions or our perceptions.

People ignore this, they ignore that the new generation is being force-fed with advertisements showing beautiful people and instagram posts showing women and men looking all charming and perfect. And it affects men too, greatly