To procastinate, means not to care about consequences, not to care about the future, to explore fantasies, daydreams, and distractions as there's always a lingering fear in the procastinator, this growing fear of confronting, of creating, of working, making an effort.
In my case, I find it destructive how my brain makes me absolutely afraid of getting things done in time, and when the time comes, I feel extremely regretful and instantly feel like I should've done things earlier, or with more time. It's ridiculous, it even sounds like an excuse.
Unfortunately, I think procastination is not only laziness, there's something deeper there, for me it's just the fact that I've spent most of my life daydreaming and filling voids with fantasies and self-indulgent activities that rarely materialize into productivity, and even when they do, they don't really do much for my professional life. This habit of fantasizing roots from childhood traumas and lack of good parenting, has made me look at the world in a way where things are made up in my mind and where I fit situations to fit my own dreams.
And that has to come to a stop! because sometimes, I imagine myself leaving this world before I turn 30 (as im scared of the future), and think that there's no point on working or being productive if I will only live till 29. Which is something I relate to this generation that has no patience and wants inmediate results on anything.
In my case, I find it destructive how my brain makes me absolutely afraid of getting things done in time, and when the time comes, I feel extremely regretful and instantly feel like I should've done things earlier, or with more time. It's ridiculous, it even sounds like an excuse.
Unfortunately, I think procastination is not only laziness, there's something deeper there, for me it's just the fact that I've spent most of my life daydreaming and filling voids with fantasies and self-indulgent activities that rarely materialize into productivity, and even when they do, they don't really do much for my professional life. This habit of fantasizing roots from childhood traumas and lack of good parenting, has made me look at the world in a way where things are made up in my mind and where I fit situations to fit my own dreams.
And that has to come to a stop! because sometimes, I imagine myself leaving this world before I turn 30 (as im scared of the future), and think that there's no point on working or being productive if I will only live till 29. Which is something I relate to this generation that has no patience and wants inmediate results on anything.
Comentarios
Publicar un comentario